I never understood how permanent death was until we lost Victory. There's no "undo" for miscarriage. There's no "undo" for cancer or anything that ends with death.
But there is resurrection.
We lost our baby at 7 weeks and decided to give her the name Victory Anastasia, meaning victorious resurrection. Because one day Jesus will raise her to life again. Jesus is the only way to eternal life. He's the only one who can save us from sin, give us everlasting life, and give us a full life on earth. He's coming back again (Mark 13:26)! One day, He will make a new heaven and a new earth (Revelation 21:1). One day, He'll wipe away every tear (Revelation 21:4).
I'm praying we won't fear miscarriage when we finally do get pregnant again. I am grieved that our family looks smaller than it truly is. I'm grieved I'll never hold Victory during this life. But I am confident that it will be a joyous day when we meet her! And I'm confident that the Lord will fulfill His promise and give us a second son. I'm confident that the Lord will fill our table, just like He's said.
I'm looking forward to celebrating Easter this Sunday because my soul longs to praise Him. And when I'm standing there in church or in the car or cooking dinner and I want to not praise, I ask the Holy Spirit for help. He fills me up, I lift my hands, tears run down my face, and I sing to my God. Because He's the great rescuer. He's the great grace-giver. He's the great warrior - never ceasing in this war that is not against flesh and blood (Ephesians 6:10-20).
What is passover?
I had a guess about what Passover was, but I had to go look it up and ask a ton of questions to Isaac. So if you're anything like me and wondering what Passover even is, grab your coffee and let's pretend like we're sitting at my kitchen table.
Passover is what Jesus was celebrating the week leading up to His death. It's the celebration of God saving the Israelites from death and leading them out of Egypt. They had been slaves for 400 years - used, beaten, and trampled. They had watched their children be slaughtered (Exodus 1:22) and they didn't see a way out. So God showed up through a series of miracles and rescued them from slavery (Exodus 14), leading them into freedom.
We're celebrating Passover starting today and we'll just let it transition us to Easter and we would love for you to join us. I actually just put this together for our family and my sisters while we were sitting on the deck last night. And the Holy Spirit stirred in my heart with this idea of a mini Bible Study on the blog this week. I already had content scheduled this week, so I moved everything around and started writing! The Lord is going to meet us this week. This is His invite to His presence this week.
I want to go through it with you. So I'm not really reading and applying the verses to my life until the day we read the verses. I wanted to be able to share in real time with you! So you'll find me sharing more on Instagram and then I might add those thoughts to the bottom of each post later on. But who knows? I'm just taking this one day at a time and expecting God to make miracles this week.
I'll be sharing the scripture we're reading, the songs we're listening to, and anything special we are doing that day. I'm excited! When we call on the name of the Lord, He answers. When we wait for Him to speak, He speaks. When we wait on the Lord, He shows up!
So let's praise Him together this week because He's going to do powerful things in our lives!
Let's read and listen together
Listen: Look to the son and Behold on the Passover & Easter Playlist
Take action: I'll be sharing more today on Instagram as we read & listen together! And I'll be back tomorrow on the blog with day 2! I would love to hear how He meets you and speaks to you this week. Let me know in the comments below or hop over to Instagram and let me know there. Praying for you, friend.