The morning light is in full swing and the windows are sealed up to keep out the cold in my Missouri home. There's music playing and I'm enjoying these hours to myself before Daniel wakes up. Just give me a little stillness in the morning and some time with Jesus. My soul craves this time.
Just as a side note: my soul has not always craved this time and it will not always crave this time. Feelings come and go. Circumstances change. But today, my feelings are lining up with the truth: time with Jesus in the morning changes my whole day. It's day 2 of our Passover to Easter study and we're reading about what the kingdom of heaven is like...
I always get a little caught up with which servant gets the most silver (verse 15). I know it's not the point of the story, but I always end up wondering how I could make sure I'm the servant who is given the 5 bags of silver. I get distracted because I'm trying to figure out how I could earn a "better" gift from the Lord.
This has looked different in each season of my life. I've craved a "better" home or office space. I've craved a "better" Instagram presence. I've craved "better" recognition in my community and industry. I've craved a "better" motherhood story - one that doesn't involve years of waiting and loss. This way of thinking has brought about discouragement, discontentment, and a belief that Jesus doesn't give good gifts to me.
I've been so caught up in trying to measure different assignments and gifts in the kingdom of God that it leaves me crippled when it's time to use what I've been given. But this isn't the point of the story. Jesus is telling us that when we use what we've been given, He gives more responsibility (verses 21 and 23). We don't have to fear good gifts or try to figure out what they mean.
Jesus' response to the servant who ended up with 10 bags of silver is the same as the servant who ended up with 4 bags of silver. He is not comparing us to each other. He is not looking at us with the same measuring stick that I've been using.
"To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away." Matthew 25:29
How can we put our bags of silver to use today?
- Work as though we're working for the Lord. Colossians 3:23 was a favorite verse growing up. It was on my mind when I was doing my chores at home and when I was playing soccer in high school. Verse 40 touches on serving the "least of these" like we're serving the Lord. This isn't a way for us to look down on others or think more of ourselves, but to see our resources as meant to be used.
- Don't compare our bags of silver. We have been given our own land - our own spiritual gifts and talents - and Jesus doesn't want us to get distracted with comparison. He wants us to go use our gifts in freedom.
- Don't fear good gifts. We don't have to figure out who has the best _________. I think fear is at the heart of comparison because it's constantly telling us that the gifts we have are not enough. But these gifts are from the Lord! There is no lacking when it comes to His gifts. His gifts are good enough.
I'll be back tomorrow on the blog with day 3! I would love to hear how He meets you and speaks to you this week. Let me know in the comments below or hop over to Instagram and let me know there. Praying for you, friend.