I lay Daniel on the bed each morning and I tickle his stomach, his neck, and his back. I kiss his cheeks and he giggles at me. I scoop him up and tell him I love him and he babbles at me. And yes, by that time I have already pulled back the curtains and the sunlight is filling the whole room. It's actually picturesque.
I am asked all the time how I balance running a business with being a stay at home mom. I cringe a little bit at that question because I am far from perfect at balancing the two. That's why I shared this post on instagram.
When I picture my perfectly balanced home, it is like this nice, refreshing, restful home with baked goods, perfect social media presence for my business, booked weddings, and a child who has never known a minute without me. Really, everything is thriving because I have endless minutes each day and I'm now omnipresent. Ha.
In case you didn't know, that's not realistic. But for months I tried to make it my reality and it left me feeling like a failure who had been left all dried up and alone. That's not balance, friends.
Balance looks a lot more like children playing on a teeter totter. Sometimes the speedy up of one side leads to the thump as the other side hits the ground. I don't think that we were intended to sit still on the teeter totter, hold our breaths, and hope that we could keep it steady. I think we were meant to play with all the exuberance of a child on a teeter totter.
It looks like slow mornings with my son, working during his naps or when someone can watch him, going on long walks as a family in the evening, and sometimes working after Daniel goes to sleep. It looks like occasionally not wanting to leave for a shoot because I just want a little more time with Daniel. It looks like me wanting just one more hour with Isaac every day and somehow staying up way too late together every night.
If you know Jesus, then you have an advantage: you don't have to seek out balance.
I was so caught up in the balancing act that I missed the point of balance: to joyfully embrace the important. So how do I balance being a mom and a business owner? Each day I am choosing to joyfully embrace the important. And don't worry, next week I'm diving into the practical things that I have done to make balance a possibility.