In case you didn't notice, I didn't share my July goals. I made a decision to give away more free content and share less about myself because I thought that's what my readers would want. But I learned something about you this month! You want me to share parts of my life with you. It makes it feel more like we are chatting over coffee because we are friends every weekday instead of me lecturing you on photography. So here is to friendship. :) So friend, this last month was full of challenges. And you know what challenges bring? Growth. And a lot of it. I feel like I am growing as a mom and a wife in unexpected and beautiful ways. When I was in labor, I tried to accept the pain - submit to it, if you will - so that my body could relax and labor would progress. But there was one contraction where I had just had enough. I was tired and ready for the pain to subside. So as it reached the peak of pain, I tried to swat it away with my hand. It makes me laugh now because it obviously didn't work!
I have felt that way in motherhood too. I have tried to swat away the undesirable parts at times. I could feel my selfishness trying to feed off of yet another diaper change or another sleepless night. I could feel my mind wanting to swat it away and just keep the easy parts of motherhood. And I have learned over the last three and a half months that those challenges make motherhood.
Motherhood isn't built on the smiles and the cuddling. Motherhood is built on something far less fleeting. It's foundation is unyielding selflessness. It pours out patience. It's walls are made of wisdom. It makes food of perseverance. Each shingle on the roof indicates a trial. Motherhood is built in those dreaded nights, through every diaper blow out, canceled date night, and morning that came too soon. Those smiles and laughs are the blessing of motherhood, but no, they do not make up motherhood.
James 1:2-5 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you."
I spend my days asking for wisdom. And to be honest, I spend some of my days fighting off my need for patience because I got this, you know? But the truth is that I don't got this and that I actually need the Lord. I don't want to settle for motherhood that is formed out of my own strength. I want something formed out of the strength of the Lord. So it is there that I rest my weary mom hands. God is good, friends. And His ways are good.
So it's August and this month I'm sharing my goals with you because I have a feeling that we are turning a corner. No, I'm not talking about sleep. I think that the last few months have been ordained to help me erase expectations of myself and come humbled before Jesus. Because let's just be honest: only Jesus can make this whole running a business and being a stay at home mom thing possible in the first place. And for now (and possibly for the rest of my life), this is what He has called me to do.
Decide how many weekends we want each month - This will start in November, friends! We are going to be really intentional about the weddings that we take in a whole new way. Instead of saying, we want to shoot x number of weddings each year, we are going to look at how many weekends we want each month to just be a family.
Take Daniel apple picking - We have a hat. So now we just need a cool day!
Eat breakfast and lunch every day - This has become a problem, but we have a juicer. So things are changing.
Go on two dates with Isaac
Go on two family outings - Apple picking and another random adventure, here we come!
Read one hour every day - Or 2. Or 3.
Do a quick devotional when Jenna gets to the office
Cook dinner 4 nights a week
Spend time with Daniel between his naps
Drink lots of water + stay hydrated
Get out of the house every day
Be at home 3 evenings each week - This is a lot more challenging than it sounds with my job! So that means spacing out shoots so that we can all be together at home 3 times each week!
Find a core group - We transitioned to one church back in March/April. Before that, our time was spent between two (talk about difficult)! That was right around the time Daniel was born so we have yet to find a core group (aka Sunday School class). We are excited!
This list feels long, but the goals are simple. And that's what I am about these days! Below are photos from our adventures. We spent one morning in bed taking photos of Daniel, we took headshots for me, and we spent a lot of time staring at Daniel this month.
In case you're wondering, this is how we like to find our location sometimes. And yes, Isaac strikes a pose every time. Love this man.